Just a heads up
I may or may not be deleting this blog.
Well not really…
But ideally, what I’d like to do is “archive” it somehow and start fresh. I don’t want to delete it because I’m no longer the type to run away from my past. These posts are me, whether in moments of greatest enlightenment or greatest breakdown. They are my past, and my past is mine no matter what. God doesn’t abandon a creation just because it turned out bad, and my past is the same way.
In any case, I’m looking for a new change in social networking and blogging. I have about a zillion blogs, from xanga to blogspot to wordpress, along with other accounts on Facebook, Twitter, YouTube, BlogTV (for future use), Bandcamp (for future use), Flickr (for future use), Vimeo (for future use) and others that I simply just have no idea what to do with. It feels like my backpack is getting too heavy for my own comfort, especially since I’m a pretty organized dude. I like things simple, but clearly this isn’t in my nature at all.
This is my “main blog” on Tumblr, so unfortunately I can’t name a new one as my “new main blog.” So whenever I like something, it will be liked under this blog’s name. I await the day tumblr changes this (This is the same scenario that happened with my last account, except I had a quote-book blog as my main account. It felt strange seeing this inspirational and philosophical quote-blog “liking” immature Pokémon jokes. Haha) but for now, I’ll have to look for alternatives.
My other issue is privacy. I’m still in this limbo of figuring out what I want, because in a sense I want my thoughts to be private, safe and protected. And at the same time, I want people’s feedback and just to simply know they’re reading. I want people to hear my voice, but not necessarily respond to it in any meaningful way. And Tumblr is perfect for that, because it has a reply feature and a like feature. Just people liking my posts makes me feel secure that my opinion is not crazy, which I unfortunately need a lot of reassurance on as life goes on. It’s easy for me to feel alone in the world in my beliefs.
In essence - I don’t know what I want.
All I know is Tumblr doesn’t feel like the most thought-heavy place. And it feels strange to have alternation between long-winded reflections on life and “LOL LOOK AT THIS TURTLE” pictures. I also don’t like having these multiple blogs that I try and separate into separate things… so I’m still looking for a solution.
What I MAY do is create a new blog with searchable tags. But again, I don’t want to force people to subscribe to the entirety of that mess, if they only wanna see the cool design pictures I put up or something. Anyways who knows…
One thing I know is, I have this strange conflicting need for the public to hear my thoughts, but for that to discriminate from post to post. I think I’m too much of an idealist; I guess I’m just extremely determined to look for “pathways in the rubble” in this world. If someone says something is impossible or unrealistically ideal, I become determined to find a way to make it happen. It’s hard to convince me that something’s impossible.
ANYWAY, I digress too much.
I want a separation of my small thoughts (like twitter) from my big scholarly written essays (like wordpress) and my collection of amazing designs and my funny pictures and my emotionally-influenced posts and my random moments in life and…
I want it all sorted, but in one place. And I don’t want to send all of this stuff to an empty internet void, but I don’t want the entire world to find out about it either. I want my closest friends to read it and I want strangers to read it. I don’t want to feel a need to censor myself.
So who knows what will happen. But I will do my best to let you guys know of any changes. Thanks for sticking around! :]
